At this yearâs National Rifle Association annual meeting, President Donald Trump invited some special guests on stage. The first was a from Virginia, April Evans.
âOne night in 2015 she was alone with her two-year-old daughter when an intruder broke into her home violently,â said Trump.
âApril took care of it.â
The crowd swooned.
Evans told them she shot the man twice and held him at gunpoint until police responded. Stories like hers reinforce an idea both the NRA and the gun industry have emphasized for decades: Guns keep women safe in an unsafe world.
Decades ago, that the presence of a gun in a home increased the risk of violence in that home. Since then, have that are to danger for in particular. Nevertheless, self-defense is still the women own firearms. For many women gun owners, it may not matter that crime stats donât line up with how their guns make them feel.
The Equalizer
Thereâs a commonly held idea in pro-gun circles that guns level the playing field between the strong and the weak.
âThereâs all these kinds of mantras and phrases,â said University of Arizona sociologist Jennifer Carlson. âAnd then there is one thatâs some version of: âGod created man and woman, but [gunmaker] Samuel Colt made them equal.ââ¶Ä
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Carlson is the author of âCitizen-Protectors: The Everyday Politics of Guns in an Age Of Decline,â and as part of her research, she became an NRA-certified instructor. She said plenty of that training is about the basics of shooting skills and safety.
âBut kind of underlying all of this is a presumption about crime that whatever happens to you itâs probably going to be strangers who perpetrate it,â said Carlson. âItâs going to be sudden, itâs going to be fast and itâs going to be violent. And really the only thing you have to do is figure out how to basically train your muscle memory to respond as fast as possible.â
What gets left out of that narrative, according to Carlson, is that most donât look like that. Neither does domestic violence.
âYouâre experiencing crime and victimization, , acute moment of violence, but itâs generally in the form of mental abuse, psychological abuse, financial abuse,â said Carlson.
, attacks from strangers make up less than a third of violent crimes against women. The vast majority of violence women face comes from people they know.

In 2017, more than 2.9 million women were victims of a violent crime. Most of them knew the aggressor (64%). On the other hand, 45% of the men victimized in 2017 knew who the offender was.
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Janet

Janet Paulsen jumps the wake during a practice session on her adaptive slalom sit ski at Lake Allatoona in Acworth, Georgia, on Sunday April 21, 2019. She was paralyzed in one leg after her husband shot her.
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In Janet Paulsenâs case, the attack came from her husband. She had asked him for a divorce â he was an alcoholic.
One day in 2015, she came home to her Georgia suburb to drop off some groceries when she saw him out of the corner of her eye.
âHe was leaning against that wall, cocking the gun,â she said.
He shot her six times, paralyzing her in one leg, before he killed himself.
Paulsen does not think having a gun would have helped her. She was ambushed.
âMy brain went right to: Get out of this situation,â said Paulsen. âI wouldnât have been able to get into a shootout with him.â
Sheâs had plenty of time to think about it. After the attack, she learned to shoot as part of her recovery.
âThe images I used to have of seeing him cocking that gun and pointing it at me, they kind of faded after I went through that training,â said Paulsen. âAnd instead, the view was from behind the gun, with me holding the gun, said Paulsen.
For a while, carrying her gun around made her feel safer.
And then one day it didnât.
âI think I had a flight to go somewhere and I took it out and I just didnât feel comfortable carrying it anymore,â said Paulsen.
It was a lot of responsibility. She keeps it at home now, in her walker.

Janet Paulsen keeps her Smith & Wesson revolver in her walker. She bought it after her estranged husband shot and paralyzed her in 2015.
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Paulsen does not want anyone taking that gun away. But she has also become an advocate for restricting firearms access for abusers. of intimate partner homicides are committed using guns. Her advocacy has pitted her against Georgiaâs staunch pro-gun community.
âYou say anything about gun control, people assume you are anti-gun. And obviously Iâm not,â said Paulsen, exasperated.
Learning to use gun helped Paulsen heal after her husband tried to kill her. She just does not believe that womenâs safety should rest on their shoulders alone.
âForget laws, forget police, forget the judicial system. Your safety depends on whether youâre a good shot,â she said.âKnow what? F*** that.â
Stand Whose Ground?
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The right to bear arms is something many Americans believe applies to every law abiding citizen.
âBut in practice, in the way that our criminal justice system works, in the way that our law enforcement works, Second Amendment rights are actually really only protected for the select few,â said Caroline Light, a cultural historian at Harvard University and author of âStand Your Ground: A History of Americaâs Love Affair with Lethal Self-Defense.â
The NRA and gun manufacturers began their modern pitch to women in the 1980s, according to Light.
âIn order to sell commodities in the United States, itâs long been a tradition to appeal to peopleâs fear. Thatâs how deodorant and mouthwash got going,â she said.
The same goes for guns, said Light. Statistics about women as targets of violence are a ready-made script for firearms marketers, said Light, as long as that narrative leaves out who is most likely to target them: men they know.
For Light, the gun industryâs messaging about has a troubled history.
âThe implicit narrative of stranger danger is based on an ages old historical narrative in the United States â not just in the South â that framed black, brown and indigenous men as lethal threats to white womenâs chastity and safety,â she said.
You see it in about the justifications for lynching in the 19th and 20th centuries, said Light.
âWhere some or more African American people were extralegally murdered in the service of ,â said Light, âat the same time that black and brown women were being threatened, attacked and raped by white men.â
âThereâs this long history of hiding the happening to black and brown women by appealing to white womenâs intrinsic vulnerability,â said Light, âand this urgent need to protect white women from predatory strangers, implicitly thought of as being non-white.â
So what happens when women do use guns in self-defense?
Thereâs no national data about how many women are criminalized for defending themselves against abusers. Light, along with public health researchers at Harvard, is working on collecting it now.
But from her work so far, âthe evidence shows me time and time again that women who try to protect themselves from their largest statistical threat, their own estranged or current intimate partners, end up going to prison,â said Light.
Marissa

Marissa Alexander was sentenced to 20 years in prison for firing a warning shot at her abusive husband. There is no comprehensive data on how often domestic violence survivors are criminalized for self-defense.
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âSo I had no idea Iâd even be arrested,â said Marissa Alexander.
In 2012, Marissa Alexander was sentenced to 20 years in prison aggravated assault. Nine days after giving birth, she had fired a warning shot at her jealous, husband.
Alexanderâs sentencing made . Three months earlier, , an unarmed, black 17-year-old. Many saw her case as an example of how the criminal justice system can deliver different results depending on race and gender.
Stories like Alexanderâs are one of the big reason professionals who work with women victims of violence struggle with advising women to arm themselves.
Alexander was raised around guns, trained by her Army veteran father. When she started carrying one as an adult, she was taking evening classes for her masterâs degree.
âI wanted to make sure that as I was leaving school at night, for my protection that I would have a firearm present if needed. So I went ahead and got a weapons permit,â said Alexander.
It was a 9 mm Glock that she mostly left in her car. Sheâd never had to pull her gun on anyone, until the night her husband attacked her.
Alexander had never heard of âstand your groundâ until it failed to apply in her case.
Many women in her position take . But if, like Alexander, a case goes to trial, women may find that self-defense is not an for survivors of domestic violence.
Modern self-defense laws are an expansion of a much older common law principle called the âcastle doctrine,â which basically says you should be able to protect yourself from an intruder in your home. Theyâre not designed to address violence coming from within the home.
Though using her gun led her to prison, separated her from her newborn and nearly cost her decades of freedom, Alexander believes it saved her life.
âI believe that that was the only thing that could ward off that attack that day,â said Alexander.
But that didnât stop her from being arrested and prosecuted. She won an appeal in 2013 and was . While in jail, she started hearing stories like hers from women around her and across the country â a lot of them with long sentences.
âWhat I noticed is that there had been records and proof that these womenâs abusers had been violent,â she said, âand yet that was ignored.â
So, in her experience, do guns keep women safe? Her answer is complicated.
âTheyâve been around. Theyâre going to continue to be around,â said Alexander. âAnd yet women arenât any safer than they were many years ago.â
Still, she doesnât rule it out for other women. In fact, if she had a clean record and could own a gun again, she would. She wants it for the same reasons she carried before her arrest: the threat of an attack by a stranger.
Not Me?

Promotional photo for #NotMe Day, hosted by The Well Armed Woman Shooting Chapters. Founder Carrie Lightfoot promotes gun ownership for victims of violence.
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On June 1, 2019, a group called The Well Armed Woman encouraged women to wear purple and go to shooting ranges for what it called . Participants were encouraged to make a donation to the groupâs nonprofit arm.
âWeâre all going to fire three symbolic rounds,â said the groupâs founder, Carrie Lightfoot, in a released in April. âThe first round says âI am empowered.â The second round says âI am prepared.â And the third round says âI .ââ¶Ä
Lightfoot, a firearms instructor, founded The Well Armed Woman in 2012, which is now a nationwide empire offering advice, training, merchandising and a space for gun rights activism.
An estimated American women own a gun, compared to 6 out of 10 men. Many believe womenâs gun ownership is on the rise, though thatâs up for some .
Lightfoot is grateful that the firearm industry markets to women.
âHow are they going to meet our needs if they donât market to us?â she said. âWomen are coming to gun ownership seeking a solution to a problem that they have, which is being the prey.â
Lightfoot is also a domestic violence survivor, though she said she has never had to fire a gun in self-defense. She opposes the expansion of laws that restrict domestic abusersâ access to firearms.
âYou know I have experience on both sides,â said Lightfoot. âBut Iâm not willing to sacrifice due process, which is a foundation of this country. Itâs a foundation of our Constitution.â
Earlier in life, Lightfoot didnât even let her children play with toy guns. For her, and for many women she trains, she says the shift in her beliefs about firearms happened in phases.
âI went through the emotional checklist of, âCould I really use it?â âCould I actually pull the trigger on another human being?ââ she said.
Once the answer became âyesâ and she got more comfortable firing guns, Lightfoot said they became part of her identity.
âSo now you kind of settle into, âIâm a gun owner. What does that mean?ââ said Lightfoot. âAnd you kind of start to get engaged, because now you start to connect the dots that whatâs happening legislatively or politically now can impact something that I treasure.â
A few days after our interview, Lightfoot emailed a link to an on a website dedicated to promoting concealed carrying.
In the report, women were out late on a Friday night when, according to police, a man tried to sexually assault one of them on a bridge. After a struggle, one of the women drew a gun and shot and killed the man. The woman who shot him was initially arrested for being intoxicated with a firearm. Police later decided the shooting was justified.
Lightfootâs world is full of spotlighted anecdotes like these. Sheâs also surrounded by women who tell her guns make them feelsafe.
Through that lens, any statistics about women being harmed by men with guns are just more reasons to arm herself.
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